Tuesday, February 14, 2006
3:14 PM
hey hey... yo... hehe...
sorry everyone, i know it took me
damn long just to post a entry...
really very sorry.
anyway... recently many things had happened.
someone had just said that she wants to break ties
with us. *no jie meis-
although ting have to trying very hard just to there
when she need help... crying when she gets hurt...
always worry about her...
I guess maybe she never realised and never see how
ting so worried about her when she gets hurt from that jerk !
All this we could see...
well.. and I don't why somehow I feel sad for her that
she have lost many of us just in one day whereby we just
lost one.
no one could expect that things turn out to be like that.
somehow, I'm been thinking alot.
why the hell am I here in the world?
Am I worth to be living in this world?
what kind of daughter am I in my parent's eyes?
what kind of person am I in people's eyes?
I am neither clever...
I am neither talented in anything...
I have no goals...
I have no dreams...
I can't remember that there is anything that
I have done to make me feel proud of myself..
I don't have really have no idea how am I going
to make it in the future...
ya.. i know this sound stupid when I think
those stuff...
sometimes, I get sick and tired of everything...
my mood have been ups and down recently...
I felt stressed back in 2 days whenever I'm
back at home.
But I feel easy when I'm out of the house...
somehow... I want to avoid...
I want to avoid been at home if possible...
Things are not going be normal back when it
seemed normal to everyone.
of course... in the end... to think back...
I am glad that I make a great friends
who creates many best memories for me...
I need a space...
I want a space that allow me to be in my own world.
that is the only wish I request now...
